I am 26
years old. I simply got into s*x out of ignorance like millions of young
people today. My addiction placed me as the highest abortionist in the
world at age of 26 and now, I have a sad story to tell. Until I found
myself in a total mess, I never really had any Idea what premarital s*x
was all about. I never knew it was so useless and killing. Before I got
into it, I use to think it was some fun and I dreamt of it more often
than not.
I wished
with all my heart to have a boyfriend whom we would explore it
together, little did I know that I was being nasty to myself. Because of
things I see on TV and magazine, I thought having s*x was so much fun, I
fantasized about it each time I felt lonely. I was just a little girl
but I had big wishes and huge fantasies. Only if I had known that
everything I see in movies and soap operas were just acting and make
belief; only if I had known that there is nothing in s*x after all, the
only thing in it is self destruction; I think my life wouldn’t be this
miserable.
It’s a
pity i really had to learn the hard way and I really wish I had never
been born, I wish I had not come out into this deceitful world where
nobody cares about young people, all the so called adults do is how they
would play on the intelligence of young people in a bid to exploit and
use them to satisfy their insatiable s*xual passion. I really feel bad
about this wicked world. My plight started when I was sixteen, then I
was still a virgin and in secondary school, I was ignorant of many
things but because I see it every day on the TV and internet.
More so,
a couple of so called Anti AIDS people visited us in school a couple of
times for lectures, but all they did was introduce s*x to us even more
because they really had nothing but condoms to show. Fine, they told us
about AIDS, but at the same time, they also told us about condoms, they
never really said anything real about s*x, they said we could contact
AIDS not through s*x, but unprotected sex, which means there was nothing
wrong with s*x as long as you could use condoms, but all of that I now
know very well are lies, and I wonder why men and women would enjoy
telling teenagers deadly lies like that.
Even
though I can’t blame those people totally for my plight because they
weren’t really the ones that said I should go into s*x, I still never
forgive them for encouraging me and other young people like me into s*x
with their preaching of protected sex or condom. Even though I wanted to
see what s*x was really like and I fantasized about it, some were
within me, I was still very scared of what may happen to me afterwards
if l tried it, and it was that fear that actually kept me away from it
until I was sixteen.
By the
time I was sixteen, my fantasy had gotten enough boost to express itself
with reliance to said to myself one day, “free yourself baby girl,
there is nothing terrible in sex, can’t you see everyone is doing it, by
the way, you can always use condoms nothing will happen”. So, I finally
decided to let go of my fears and embrace in totality my silly
fantasies, and that was how I took the very first step into this
miserable life of illicit s*x. I had absolutely no idea of what I was
going into.
I
finally agreed to date this guy who had been disturbing me for more than
a year, his name was Andrew. Andrew was five years older than me. Both
of us began enjoying s*x, we did it every seconds, every minute; I
became addicted that I do not love doing it with condom anymore. Within
the period, I had 14 abortions for Andrew, and not only that, I cheated
on him in several occasions, I felt doing it with other guys will give
me better sensation but all were the same.
My
school teacher got me and at the end of the day I had 6 abortions for
him. And worst among was my s3xual affairs with my close relations,
which resulted to 5 ab0rtions. Then I felt I was at the top of the
world. I will never forgive my friends who introduced me into partying
and sleeping with old men with potbelly and rough skin only in the name
of s*x. Right now, all those men have gone, and then shadow of my past
s3xual life still follows me around. All this pills and tablets I took
are now telling on my blood stream.
At times
I felt like committing suicide each time I remember what the doctor
told me, “Tessy, I am sorry, your womb is automatically damaged on
account of the several abortion you had”, “I’m sorry, you will never
conceive again in your life, but just thank God, you don’t have HIV or
AIDS”. I therefore, advise every young girl reading this piece today, to
over look every fantasy towards s*x. S*x is good but it has time. And
that is in marriage. Keep yourself away from men. Make friends with
those who mean good for your future.# M-J decided to share the story of
this lady identified as Tessy because we believe many people can learn a
thing or two from it.
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